A tattoo. Yep, just another out-of-box experience for me since turning 35.
I wanted to take a risk. I wanted out of my comfort zone. I wanted to do something a little unpredictable. My best friend and I both happened to be off on a random Tuesday and we decided to be spontaneous and go for it. I knew the placement of the tattoo on my left forearm. I knew it was going to SAY something. And I knew it was going to STAND for something. But honestly, it wasn’t until that Tuesday morning that God spoke clearly to me.
Yessss! It became clear. That was it. I felt peace and a smile was plastered on my face as Erin and I rushed to the tattoo studio, late, stuck in traffic. (Yeah, yeah…I know, I’m always late! I swear, I’m working on it!)
You might be asking, why “She laughs”?
If you’ve read my blog before, you probably know the past several years have been…well, to be perfectly frank, pretty dang hellish. I’d like to refer to it as a VERY long season of pruning. I was stripped at every level. Health, heartbreak, career, finances, and it felt like with each passing day, it was more loss and disappointment. My faith was tested. I was exhausted. I grew discouraged. But while I would allow the space for tears, I kept meditating on Proverbs 31:25.
“She is clothed with strength and dignity, she laughs at the days to come.”
I would keep moving forward. Even with the faith of a mustard seed. I made the decision to live from a posture of joy, hope, love, and faith. I promised myself that I would laugh and smile my way through this life, trusting God’s faithfulness. That He has me in the palm of His hand. That He loves me so much as His beloved daughter that He has only the best planned for me in my life. The best job for me and my skills and experiences. A healed body. A loving, trusting relationship with a strong man of character. Joy and abundance. Opportunity. When all is stripped, there is no other way than to rebuild. And rebuild is what I have done. With each passing loss, I have gained. And I will continue to gain. No matter how badly it hurts. And no matter how many times I get pinned down. I will get up with style and grace. I will smile. And I will laugh.
So let’s talk miracles. I believe in miracles both big and small. I believe they surround us everywhere; we encounter them everyday. And even when we don’t notice them, they’re there. Waiting for us.
I noticed an old co-worker following the tattoo studio I went to on Instagram. And so for whatever reason, I decided to reach out to her. And through our conversation about tattoos, we began to catch up on life. And she shared with me a job opening at work. A job that sounded like a perfect fit for me. A job that would use the education, skills, and experiences I’ve acquired over the years. A job that would provide more stability. A job that would allow for growth and opportunity. And job that would provide me benefits (after having NONE for the past two years...ick).
I applied. I interviewed. I got the job. And I start on Monday.
I reconnected with an old co-worker. Learned about an opportunity. Took advantage of the opportunity by acting on it. And accepted a job offer that will redirect my path in a very positive way and help me continue the rebuilding process. All from the crazy decision to get a tattoo on a random Tuesday.
And I laughed.
Alas, my big miracle! Thank you, Jesus! But if I’m being totally truthful, God was with me all along. In the midst of the little things. Preparing + refining me. Teaching me a valuable lesson about grace. Strengthening me. Perfecting me. These too, miracles within.
Listen closely…He is with us in the ashes. He seeks us out of hiding. He carries us. And He rejoices with us. If you are in your own season of pruning right now - know that I feel for you. My life is not perfect. It has been messy. I have not always made the best decisions. I have had moments when I have grown angry with God. I have yearned for the desires of my heart. And I have been disappointed and heartbroken. But here I am, a warrior, here to tell you that you are too! Look for the glimmers of beauty. The rays of hope. The windows of opportunity. Miracles are here. Waiting for you. For the perfect time. To change everything. All because of Him.
Grit, grace, + tattoos, oh how I thank thee. You’ve allowed me to witness God, the Miracle Maker in action…in the little things. After pruning comes a great harvest. Get ready for a season of abundance, because it’s ready for you + me. Laughing.
"The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time. You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing." (Psalm 145:13-16)